I don’t usually write about infertility.
Too deep. Too private. Too dark. Too hard.
But then I sit with someone who has shared their journey and I’m comforted. Through their brokenness and their pain, I find hope and encouragement. And I realize that’s thing with the Body of Christ . . . we’re meant to share our stories with one another in order to encourage one another. We’re meant to enter into each other’s pain to help “bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.” (Galatians 6:2) God does not waste pain. No matter the circumstance.
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)
If anything, being real and honest in our pain and weakness gives the LORD even more room to shine through us.
I realize that’s thing with the Body of Christ . . . we’re meant to share our stories with one another
So . . .Go ahead LORD Jesus. Shine through. We have been on this journey for 2 1/2 of years of trying, hoping, waiting, and longing to have a baby. We went to doctors hoping to hear good news about our chances of getting pregnant . . .We were told we have a 1-2% chance of conceiving. We did more tests. We were hoping that everything is working properly and I found out I have:
PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome)
And I don’t ovulate often
So . . . not one or two things to work through, but A LOT. The odds and complications are stacked against us. As I wrote this all down I thought WOW . . .
God does not waste pain. No matter what the circumstance.
You would God. You would let me see all that is “wrong” with me, you would show me how broken and weak I am, only to show YOU ARE STRONG. Only to prove YOU are the God who is SUPERnatural.
You are the God who is beyond circumstance. You are the God who created the Universe. You are the God who parted the Red Sea. You are the God sustained the Israelites for 40 years in the desert. You are the God who comforted Sarah, Rebekah, Rachel, and Hannah in their longing for a child. You are the God who blessed their wombs. You are the God who created me and formed me in my mother’s womb. And I long for the day to say YOU ARE THE GOD who worked through ALL of this, to bless my womb. So I say . . . GO AHEAD GOD. BLOW OUR MINDS.
I know that OUR GOD CAN.
I know that you have a plan for our family, and whatever that may be, I trust that YOUR way and YOUR plan is better than mine. Should this journey end next month, next year, or different than we think . . . I trust YOUR way and YOUR plan. And I wait expectantly in HOPE and excitement seeing what you have planned for us.
Editors Note: This article was originally posted on Melissa’s blog HERE.
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