What she was saying was that there was no shame, and those thoughts of fear have been paid for by Jesus. But, He also wants not just forgiveness for our hearts and minds but freedom by turning and walking in a new direction. His desire for us is peace and abundant life.
God began revealing a new message to me. He was using the same words, but they meant something entirely different. Those words were no longer about me choosing Him, but about the fact that He had already chosen me and I needed to accept my title as “Chosen.”
My friend and I signed up for the 10k. We figured we could do anything for 6.2 miles – even if it meant we had to hike, walk or crawl. We heard the scenery at the San Joaquin River Gorge Trail (just 45 minutes from my home in Central California) was breathtaking. I longed to try something new. How hard could it be?
Let’s just say it was hard. Maybe the hardest race I’ve ever run in my life.
When we don’t get something that we’ve prayed for, what does the enemy want us to believe? God doesn’t want you to be too happy. He hasn’t been paying much attention to you lately. You’ve messed up a lot in your past. Fill in the blank with your own personal lie that you struggle with.
But then I think there is irrational fear. Fear that is overwhelming and keeps us from living our lives, that leaves us feeling suffocated. And I just can’t help but think that when we succumb to the power of this fear that we lose all opportunity to honor God. When the fear of failure is stronger than our faith, or the fear of the unknown outweighs our hope in Him, who wins?
We must stop allowing the distraction of comparison to keep us from the things God has set right in front of us to do. It’s a battle, a fight to ward off the lies of not being enough. I believe Satan, the father of lies, loves nothing more than to tell us that we might as well not even try because it will never be good enough, big enough, or make enough of an impact.